Wednesday, 5 May 2010
The perils of being a working mum
3 weeks in to my new job and I'm now experiencing what its like being a working mum. Stressful! Sam developed a cough last night and was slightly wheezy when he woke up this morning. Jon was away in London so I had to decide whether to go to work and leave him with my very capable childminder Katy (who is also my cousin) or not go to work in case it got worse and we ended up in the hospital again. Typically I had a meeting that I really needed to attend so I decided to go as Katy knows what to look out for when Sam is wheezy and 9 out of 10 times he is fine and the doctors don't do anything. Halfway through my meeting I had to leave to take a call as Sam's breathing was quite rapid so Katy wanted to get him checked out by the GP. He was still really cheerful so we agreed I didn't need to rush home but that I would wait until she had seen the GP first. Sods law the GP appointment was exactly the same time that Izzy finishes pre school so I had to organise a friend to collect Izzy and then wait for news about Sam. Luckily Sam was ok. Hes been given a different inhaler, antibiotics and is on steroids for 5 days but no hospital visit thank goodness. Work were lovely about it but I came home feeling completely rubbish. I felt guilty for not being around for Sam when he was poorly although I did come home early and spend the afternoon with him. I felt bad for constantly interupting the meeting I was involved in to take calls and being slightly distracted and I felt bad for leaving Katy to deal with it. Basically it doesn't feel like I did anything very well today - being a mum, employee or employer. One of my friends said I would have days like this. I guess its called being a working mum. Its bloody stressful!